&& here we go again

Time for round Two

These dreams

I wake at the sound of my heart breaking all over again

The ghost of my past are haunting me again

The ghosts of the way you made me feel

The way you made me smile

The way it used to be

&& The ghosts of dreams of what could have been

It's Haunting and attacking me again

but all this means nothing now.

empty

The girl sits
Yes she sits and she waits
Waits and waiting
Will she ever feel whole again
Will the pain ever cease
The girl sits
Yes she sits and she cries

Express

This chilling cold from deep inside
coming in waves to haunt me
Memories on the front line fighting to win this battle
The battle to not be forgotten
The battle to take over me

Emotions

I'm Running

I'm Screaming

I'm No One

These Emotions

Excite Me

Terrify Me

Move Me

Freeze Me

Beat Me

Lift Me

These Emotions

Take Hold

What do you see when you look at me,
Can you hear my heart breaking when I speak,
Was it too much to believe in love.....

Promises

You Promised to always be there for me,
To always love me,
To always understand,
But I guess i broke promises too.

Good Bye

Some of the hardest words I will ever say
Two simple words, but oh how they kill me to whisper
Choking on the sound, struggling with meaning
Good Bye Love, Good Bye Life

A life I once knew

.....TOUGH FREAKING LOVE......

A life I once knew
A life I once loved
A life that was mine
Ripped from my Grasp
Sending me out to this world
Now on a constant search
A search for ..
A life I once knew

The stitches are ripping.
You fool
It's not my fault
I'm a fool
Taking blame and pain
That isn't mine
You fool
Your losing me
Minute by minute
Day by Day

Damn it....
I love you.....
I love you so much....

Finally New Posts

Hostage To My Nightmares
Hostage To My Fears
Ransom...
Forgiveness, No One Can Pay
Murdered By My Nightmares
Murdered By My Fears
Abandoned...
Alone in the Darkness

::Written 03/10::

New

Hot water pouring down our bodies
Your hand moves slow across my face
You grip my neck and pull me in close
My body tenses with anticipation
You lean in close
Our faces brush
You whisper
"I'm ready."

::Written 06/07::

Mixed Emotions

A cold ceiling staring back at me
Unfamiliar faces coming in and out of the room
Totally alone with thoughts of you
8 weeks so small no choice
Unsure how to feel and still alone

-Written 07/07-